Monday, May 14, 2007

Referrals Take a While....

I didn't realize how long referrals from MTF to MTF actually took. After a few calls to WH I finally got someone and realized they don't do referrals. So I called my PCM (Primary Care Manager) and got them to put the referral in. Now, when I did this in Texas at Brooks, the referral was submitted 5/30 and accepted that same day. I guess I expected too much. :/ This one was started Tuesday, but got bounced everywhere, and here it's Monday and not yet submitted to Womack. I called and finally got someone and they told me they're waiting to get Womack's fax number to submit the referral. They told me it usually takes another week to review and accept me. I'm glad I started this so early out (in May on our non-medicate cycle), so that I'm not stressing about it being accepted by any particular time-frame. I really need to remember how much red tape there is everywhere and let my expectations down a bit.

Other than that, nothing else new to report. Interestingly enough, Mother's Day has never ever been hard for me. I've actually never related my desire for a child and infertility to Mother's Day. Mother's Day to me has been about my mother. I have a wonderful mother and want to bless and praise her on Mother's Day. So I never feel cheated. But I did get an email from a friend last night just telling me she was thinking and praying for me because she knows Mother's Day can be hard for people like me. This was incredibly sweet and caring, especially considering this is her 2nd Mother's Day without her mom, who she lost to cancer. Unbelievable she'd think of someone else's loss when her own must feel so great. So I cried because it hurts sometimes when you feel constantly overlooked and an outcast to your "friends" because they all conceive easily and you're the one who makes them uncomfortable because you remind them that life's not always picture perfect. And I cried for my selfishness since I have a mother and this sweet girl doesn't, yet I can be so upset over my infertility. Life's such a confusion. I will write her back today, but not yet. Not ready yet.....

5 comments:

Karen said...

My grandfather lives near BAMC and thinks they're just about the greatest medical center on the planet. Sounds like maybe he's right.

Your friend was very sweet. Mother's day has never been too difficult for me either, but I have my mother. My best friend lost her mother to cancer when she was in 7th grade and I imagine mother's day is impossible for her. I still find it funny that people wish me a Happy Mother's Day (I have a 3 1/2 year old foster son). Somehow mother's day isn't about someone MY age... it's about someone my MOTHER'S age!! I'm not grown up enough yet!

Kate said...

It's really great to have people that think about you and feel comfortable showing sympathy. Maybe her loss has made her more aware of the pain of others.

hopeful to hateful in 28 days said...

welocme to blogland. I think you'll really like all the support you'll find.

I'm going to add you to my frequently read list :)

K said...

Bless your heart! I've just read through all your entries, and your faith inspires me....I'll be checking in on you regularly from now on, and I've added you to my 'blogroll', as they say. Thanks for your kind and thoughtful comments on my blog!

CAM said...

That is great to have such a thoughtful friend. You never know how some of your closest friends will react....some say and ask nothing....some say surprisingly thoughtless things....and then some are so sweet it makes you cry. That friend is a keeper!!